"As bottom-feeders set the agenda, everyone is reduced to being treated no better than the lowest rung by a dumbed-down, idiot-proofed nanny state. It's not that the lunatics are running the asylum, but with democracy's deification of Victimhood, lunatics are coddled and subsidized, and the productive are their slaves."
- Boyd Rice
My life, even when i endeavour to simplify it, has had a tendency to be particularly dramatic, especially at the most inopportune moments. so, here i am, unemployed. again.
However, this time it's sort of a celebratory occasion, even if is inconvenient and sort of a reason for me to begin panicking. since july, i'd been working in the warehouse for a company that sells used high-end hifi stereo and home theatre gear. the owner of this company is a small man. his affinity for betting on the horses and fucking prostitutes, addiction to cocaine and heroin, and general attitude that he doesn't care about anyone or anything was at first somewhat interesting and amusing. as the months drew on and his behaviour became more erratic and actually began to have an impact on my existence outside of work, i started to understand more clearly that someone like him was not to be trusted.
when he fired my good friend, who'd helped me get my foot in the door and who was actually the company's most valuable employee, with absolutely no legitimate grounds for doing so, it became obvious that my time there was going to be short-lived — at best.
business has declined considerably during the past several weeks, ever since the company was blackballed from a prominent site where literally 90% of his sales had been generated. the hifi establishment seeks to rub him out, but his personal view is that he is a "god" and can't be stopped. anyone who challenges this skewed vision of the world is expendable to him. since i was a threat and a friend of someone he'd previously used to prove to his tremendous staff of 9 people just how much power he had over them, it was time for me to go as well.
The fact is, i'm much better off. my initial impulse had been to quit after he fired my friend, but i knew i needed to be working. however, it became very clear that the business was floundering due to his insane misdirection and lack of humility, and i knew it would only be a matter of time before i was gone. in fact, two days prior to my firing (the stated reason for which was, "i don't have to explain myself to you"), i was told that because business was slow, he didn't need two shipping guys, but he kept me around to go to the local otb for him to cash out stubs from his winnings over the weekend. it was at this point that i really knew i could go at any moment.
So, here i am...
it was my intention to refuse to allow this to get me down, but events and circumstances that have unfolded in the single day since i lost my job are such that optimism is not particularly easy to muster at this moment. nevertheless, i shall — as always — press on.
The ANNIHILVS site and related domains have been down for over a week now, with no real set date for a return in sight. however, the blog and the webstore remain functional and active, so i'm not viewing it as an emergency so much as a minor irritation.
I am pleased to report that i've been steadily shipping preorder items (and other orders) out during the past few weeks. i'm very interested in having feedback from people who receive their items in the following weeks, about how they feel the releases turned out.
The WILT shirt is going to be printed this week, and the IRM shirt is coming shortly after. preorders will continue to ship until all orders have been filled. please note that the MARTIN BLADH SPECIAL EDITION has been temporarily marked as sold out, pending the production of more copies.
I'm very excited to announce the following items, available now for preorder:
INTO THE UTTERMOST FIELDS OF ETHER CDR-PREORDER
PRODUCED ON-DEMAND-SHIPPING LATE FEBRUARY 2010
love is nothing.
WITHOUT ME CDR-PREORDER
PRODUCED ON-DEMAND-SHIPPING LATE MARCH 2010
OBLITERATE THE HEART, LIBERATE THE SPIRIT-PREORDER PACKAGE
LIMITED TO 36 COPIES-SHIPPING LATE MARCH 2010
More new items are coming soon, including:
THE MUSIC OF ERICH ZANN-PREORDER PACKAGE
Several distro items have been added to the webstore, including my very last personal copies of the VTERVS LIMITED BOXED EDITION from NTT, which i discovered while cleaning last weekend.
I've had to increase international shipping rates for the newest batch of items, because it's become obvious that i can't afford to continue eating shipping as i increase my active stock. the average 1-2 pound priority mail shipment overseas is around $15-$20, so i've had to make adjustments to reflect that.
More is coming. thanks to everyone who continues to show support and interest in my activities.