"I've walked across the sun. I've seen events so tiny and so fast they hardly can be said to have occurred at all, but you... you are a man. And this world's smartest man means no more to me than does its smartest termite."
- Dr. Manhattan, Alan Moore's WATCHMEN
Today is my 38th birthday. as i look back on where i've been during the past two years and the trials i have faced, now it all seems like a dream.
the circumstances of my life have gone through a subtle metamorphosis in the last month. i find myself gainfully (and enthusiastically) employed, which is in and of itself a drastic alteration in what had become a frightening and painful existence.
the seemingly endless series of rejections heaped upon rejections that i have gone through since 2007 had begun to crush the absolute center of who i was, and i'd lost sight of where i wanted my life to go. i've said numerous times in the month since i got this job that while i am hesitant to use the phrase 'happy' to describe myself, it is in fact a fairly applicable adjective for how i feel when i get up and come to work every day.
after month after month of physical inactivity and self-loathing, having to spend my days in a somewhat hot warehouse, loading and unloading trucks, packing and hefting large crates and boxes full of solid state stereo equipment and ridiculously large speakers, has been turning my flab into muscle mass and the realm of my mind into a far more peaceful landscape.
While the emotional injuries i've suffered in the past year will not be easily forgotten or forgiven, i do feel better than i have in a very long time, physically and mentally...
This can only serve to have a positive impact on my artistic endeavours, which have always suffered when i've found myself in financially dire straits that lead directly to a severe disquiet of the mind. at present, there are plans in the works for a series of new releases to come in the year ahead. It seems that august has often been a time when annihilvs has bloomed after periods of deathlike silence, and perhaps it's fitting that this is the month when both myself and the label were born — and reborn.
So, what's coming? without getting ahead of myself and announcing things that may never come to fruition (something of which i've been guilty far too often), i can tell you the following should be going into production during the next few months:
• a series of limited t-shirts for each artist on the current annihilvs roster
• a series of limited t-shirt/cassette/cdr releases by:
THE VOMIT ARSONIST
...and more to be confirmed, each includes collaborative material with THEOLOGIAN
• the long-delayed and long-awaited solo cd, STUDY FOR A THEATER OF CRUELTY by MARTIN BLADH
• new material from THEOLOGIAN and love is nothing., including a collaborative cd release with my friends TOURNAMENT
• I've begun to post various distributed items in the GASHDIRECT section of the annihilvs site. more is coming.
• live events in the works:
THEOLOGIAN live at the NORTHEAST NOISE & POWER ELECTRONICS FESTIVAL
november 6-8 in boston
FIRE IN THE HEAD
CATHODE TERROR SECRETION
JAPANESE TORTURE COMEDY HOUR
APEX FEST III
november 13+14 in nyc
lineup to be confirmed
That would seem to be all for the moment. as always, thank you for looking and listening.